4 weeks!

Wow how time seems to go so fast!

Jacob is growing fast. Close to 8 pounds now and getting so strong!  

He is going through so many changes each day. I love to see his smile every morning!   

11/04/14

November 4th was absolutely the best day of mine and Josh's life!

Jacob Ryan arrived healthy and beautiful!

Jacob is a happy little guy that smiles all the time. We are in love!  

October....

   Here we are halfway through October.  Time feels as if it's going slow now that my husband and I have done so much around the home.  Getting everything ready for Jacob to come into the world...all is done and ready!!  

Now just waiting on the day he is ready to come.  I have had so many dreams about him and how handsome of a little man he already is.  I can't even say how excited my husband and I are and how much we already love this little guy!!!   

His little bag is packed and ready to go... I may or may not have over packed!!!   

The excitement is getting to me and the joy of seeing the whole family love Jacob so much...  Any day now!  

We love you Jacob and can't wait to meet you

Love 

Jen

Just weeks away

A little less than 5 weeks!

Jacob Ryan will make his way into this world.  Words can't describe how much joy and love I'm feeling. Most of all how thankful my husband and I are for this amazing gift!!  

Time...what time

                                        A list of to dos....a long list!

Over the last few weeks my house has been crazy!  My husband and I have been making a nursery for little Jacob.  Doing small job's here and there to make our house feel like a home.  Everything is coming together little by little.  I have been cleaning like a crazy taz woman!  I want to make sure everything is perfect before Jacob comes in to this world.  Just to think that a few weeks ago my husband and I had only two months to get every thing on order.  I stressed so  so bad thinking that I will not have not have time to get EVER thing done in a short time.  I mean come on...most people have 9 months to get things ready for a baby!  I have 2 months....but..............Everything is falling in place and just a few things here and there to finish up on. 

Now time to wait.....and wait.  The next few weeks will feel like forever!  This weekend is the baby shower so that should keep me from the long wait for a minuet.  A big thanks to friends and family helping around our home to make things ever so perfect! 

Pictures to come soon!!!


Jen ;)

A Blessing

           A long path of hopes and dreams were once crushed by my lack of being able to become pregnant.  My world came to a stop!  As time went on my husband and I looked in to adopting.  That became crazy of trying to figure out how to become rich fast!!!  We were at a point of giving up and being alone, that it just would not happen for us.  A lot of "it's just not ment to be for us". 
The pain was real...I saw the pain in my husbands eyes all the time as he saw it in my eyes.  It was not a conversation him and I spoke of much we just could see it with in each other. 
But with that hope and faith still alive in our hearts....Last week a wonderful loving birth Mother has chosen my husband and I!!!!
Our hearts fell in love, we fell in love all over again. 

All in oe week...We have started a nursery, cleaning ( momma crazy deep clean) Making list of what all has to be done...all in just a little less than 2 months to hold this sweet love!
Jacob Ryan 11/2/2014
 
  A name picked out in little then 10 minuets....
The Birth Mother has asked us to not give her name out as the child gets older.  The birth mother had been calling the baby Ryan.  We were told that we didn't need to keep Ryan we could pick a name that we love.  But my husband and I thought it would be great to leave ryan in the name leaves a little of his birth mother with us. 
My husband and I can not wait to meet our little boy and love on him everyday!!!   The joy with in our harts are over filled and oh so happy.  No words can express how much we have waited for this love to enter our lives.  We have seen ultrasounds of this little guy and let me tell ya' he is handsome!!!   We love this little man and can't wait!!!!!!!! 
Hold on to faith!  Jacob is a love so so worth waiting for...

More news later

Sharing Happyness and Joy!

                                    I am so happy to share...........
My cousin katie is going to be a MOMMY! 


One happy Rockie!!!

  

Baby K, Jan.2015

I found out Mother's Day night.  I was laying in bed and I get a text!  At first the name looked like it said Kevin, text was.. guess who is going to be a mommy...So I put my phone back on the nightstand thinking to myself "why would Keving be telling me someone is pregnant?"  So I grab my phone again and put my eyes on......... jump out of bed and realize I just text Katie saying "Who??"  At that point I had to call her! She told me the very first person her and Billy told that wonderful Mother's day, her mother my Aunt Janet.  And let me tell Ya...That put tears in my eyes.   I knew, just knew at some point this YEAR I would find out that she and Billy would start a family. Ok Ok I can't lie. I hoped that this year would be the year.

I could not be anymore excited for Katie,Billy and Big brother Rocky!
They will be great loving parents!

12 hours?!?

                          So my father went under surgery on the 15th or May.

That morning we were told it would be 748 minuet surgery....12 hours and 46 min. WHAT?  Serious that long!  Well in the end it ended up being a total of a little over 10 hours long.  Let me tell you...waiting that long was so scary!  He went in at 7am and a little before midnight my mother and I went in to the ICU to see him.  At the first sight of seeing him....I could not breath. Everything went blank.  To watch my mother see  him the way he was hurt me, my heart fell to the ground hard seeing her hurt for him...   For what seemed like forever was just silant and tears.    He didn't even know my mother and I were there.  He was hooked to all kinds of things and a breathing tube down his throat.  He looked more like someone that was in a 10 car pile wreck than someone that just had surgery!  Nver never want to see him that way again! But ...
The surgery went well and cancer has been removed along with everything in the pelvic area!!! 
Needless to say it has not been an easy recovery!  We have had many good and bad times,learning how ostomy bags work has not been easy AT ALL. He has had a few set backs. But weeks later I think we finally got the hang of things.  My father has little by little been doing well and trying to build his strength back up.

I have to say that I never in my wildest dreams ever thought that that I would ever see  my father go through so much and hurt so bad that there is nothing I can do to make him feel better.  Most days I wish so so wish I could just take it all away from him.  Going through many emotions with him and my mother has made us stronger and closer.  My mother has been his BIGGEST supporter and I am so happy that he has such a great wife and bestfriend.       

A BIG thanks to all family and friends for the support and prayers and love.   


XOXO
Jen

Mother

Happy Mother's Day to all moms out there. But I want to wish my mother a wonderful Mother's Day. With out you I would be lost. Your my mom and best friend!  I love you for all that you do!  

You a wonderful wife,sister,friend and mother. My life would not be the same with out you!  

I love you,

Jen

Happy Dance!!!

                                                       Spring????  Could it be??
Why of course it could be....finally!  Seriously, I have been waiting on this last final day of winter for eeeevvverrrrrrr.  Phew talk about one of the most longest winters of all time!  Anyway....I am a big fan of SPRING! 

1:   It's my Birthday! On the first day of spring! Yea I'm that cool!
                                       
2:        I just love spring weather
                      
 3:       All of the beautiful flowers and trees come to life.
                                        

                
 4:  I know summer is next in line
                                  


Anyone else excited for this wonderful weather ??? 

Long Battle

                                               Update on my father.

 Many trips to Cleveland Clinic and we now have a surgery that's going to take place.
I am not too sure on how I feel about the surgery. Am I scared? Yes! Is he strong? your damn right he is! Will he ever be cured? Lord I hope and wish,but he will never be cancer free. The surgery is a high risk surger,yes every surgery is a risk. But this surgery is a very high risk. I am glad we are at the point for him to have this surger....knowing that the cancer is spreading. The surgery will control(I hope) from spreading even further. he finished up with chemo but the doctors want two more treatments before surger in May. But as I said he is strong and I am so proud that he has come this far.
 What will I be doing leading up to May? Trying not to think about May... Not thinking of what if's... Not stressing about the small things in life....As sure as hell not listning to anymore sad songs! just taking one day at a time! Sure I will have this on my mind for the next 62 days. (seams far away but I know the days will go too fast) Wish I could stop time. 
 He's my dad, so all I can do is think about him....
No one wants to see thier parent hurt,sad or even sick.
 
                                     We have to have Hope & Faith. 
                                          We have to be strong.
                                      We have to hold each other.
                                            We have to beleive.
                                       Love Never Fails.

                                                     

                                                                 




                                                                  

                                                   

                                                           

Friday and MagiC!!

                                  Is it Magic?

So.....I am not one of those that just get all cought up in gimmicks.  One night a few weeks back a friend of mine had some guy come out a do a deminstration on a vacuum.  Me...thinking to myself "really it's a vacuum".  Ok ok well it's a Rainbow vacuum that uses water.  Ok so this guy comes over and does this demo.  I knew or at least thought my husband would not impressed at all.  But to my suprise....he was! 
Then we come to the cost of this wonder cleaner.....2,700.00$  Ummmm right!  No thank you.

But we did like how well it cleaned and to my suprise it pulled more dirt out than I thought it would.  In my mind I am thinking this can't be!  I vacuum evryday...yes everyday because I have dogs.  So after a few days/week of going round and round about this ever so high priced thing!  I was not about to spend that kind of money on a damn vacuum!  However.....as much as I loved the way it cleaned my a one year old rug that looked faded and well not they way it used to look, I could not (nor could my husband) get out of our mind how clean and new our area rug looked! 
So the big spender I am...haha NOT!   I got to looking around for one.  you get one online you's 1,800.00$ but not going threw a sales person.  But still was not about to spend that much either!!  EbAY please... yes Ebay!  I got to looking around on ebay for this baby.  The magic wand cleaner....and looking at rivews for days on end about how so many people loved the Rainbow vs. anyother vacuum cleaner...even Kirby and Dyson!  Reading on how they lasy 40 + years and they are the best of the best...I had to have one!  And that day on Ebay I found one!  You ready for the cost??   HOld you to your seat!                          Total 349.95!  Bam!   and let me tell ya'...Not only do I love how well it works...so does my husband who has never in the 12 years cleaned and is loving it as much,he has even used it! 

This thing is ertifed asthma and allergy friendly.  Not only does it suck all the dirt and crap out of the carpet/rugs and hard wood floors.  It sucks dust from the air as you vacuum.  Sold!
 

                                           

Longest FriDay ever..................

                               I don't know about you but this has been the LONGEST Friday.  Could it just be this bad winter?? What has people in a bad moof or just right down hateful!
Co-workes in bad moods.....people on the road are angry drivers....at the stores!  Come on peps life can't be that bad!  Sure this winter sucks...but get over it.  people here in the office are in one heck of a mood!  Tudes flying all over the place.
                                          

Things to keep in mind:

1: Winter is just about OVER!  Soon you will all be crying that it's too hot!

2: Break out of the cubicle walls.................

3:  Life is just too short to be so unhappy!

4: Kids will be back in school soon!

5: It's Friday....five o'clock somewhere

A bumP in the road

                                                    

I am trying hard with blogging.  I sit here day after day thinking of what to blogg about.  It's not that I have nothing to blogg about....it's just hard to think of what I want to blogg about.  So many things going on in my life but most of witch I can't/won't dicuss at this time.  Not that I an making the choice not to.  Just not the right time.  So I am at this road block of trying to think of what other things to blogg about.  Sure I could go on and on about my fur children,but I am sure you will get sick of reading and seeing pictures of them...then you would also think I am some kind of a freak(I just might be) about my kids. 
Maybe I just need.................................  st need  


or do I just have a    


On a good note!  It's Friday!!!!!!  Super Bowl weekend! 

                            Have a great weekend everyone :)

Could it be the cold?

                                                 I am not one to look for crafts to do....But with this OMG cold winter I have been looking for things to do during the evening hours.  I came across this thing that looked neat!  Quilling!  What you can make cute fun things with paper??  i looked at this quilling thing and saw how easy it looked and all the neat things to make.     So for Valentine decor!!!!   take a look!  Might be somethin you would want to try.


       


                                                               

A winter to remember!

                                                          


                                                      This winter......Polar Vortex!

I don't even know how to explain what a crazy winter this has been.  So far Ohio has hit a whopping -19 degrees!  Yes you read it right....-19, with wind chil it was almost 30 below zero.  It has been 35 years since the last major freez for Ohio.  Let me tell you omg it has been so so cold!  When you walk out of your house and you can't breath....you know it's cold!  Car does not get warm until you have drove for 30 miles....You feel like you will never get warm!

                                                             


   I know that my pups are just as sick of the cold as I am.  So far I wake up freezing every morning because Maggie takes all the blankets and stays under them.    Sarah has hid under blankets for two days now and has sunk deep in out couch!  Trying to keep out house warm is a joke!  I have not seen sun light in days and I feel that the freez has me out of my mind! 
I will hate myself before long but..........................I want summer here!  Warm sunny days...long walks....poolside....cook outs!   Please being me summer!